I’m getting really bad about updating this sucker, huh?

The last few weeks have been rather hectic to say the least. I’ve dealt with watching a sick nephew that came down with the flu, then I came down with it myself, a lot (that is an understatement) of family drama, getting caught up on work and that whole redoing my bedroom thing. I’ve been busy.

Before I get too far in my venting session, I’ll share a photo or two of the changes I made to my bedroom. I apologize for the poor quality of these — thank my cellphone.

BEFORE;

AFTER;

NEW DESK;

In other news;
Today would have marked my 10th wedding anniversary. It just dawned on me about 30 minutes ago. Like I’ve mentioned before, I’m glad it’s not going to be celebrated. I do feel a little.. off.. about it all though. I guess that’s normal. Sometimes it all seems so new, but it’s been over 10 months since the decision to divorce was made. I know in time I’ll gradually let go of all of these mixed emotions. I just wish I could right now, this moment.

I’ve been dealing with a lot of stress lately, and emotional garbage (not just from what’s been noted above) but also because of some family stuff. I know I’m rather sensitive at times, but I was really hurt last week by something someone I thought I was close to had said. Actually, a lot of things this person said. Frankly, I’m insulted and a bit enraged by most of it. I’m not going to get into the details, but I will say this — I have lost every ounce of respect for this person, and can say without a single doubt that I’ll never look at them the same. There’s just no way I could ever go back to the way things were now. I have forgiven people for a lot worse, so I know in time I’ll forgive her too.. but I will never, ever forget.

I have to cut this short now. I need to do something with my hair (which by the way, has been chopped to chin length — I am not crazy about it yet). I’m taking my 3 youngest nephews to the park this afternoon for a picnic because I lost a bet with them. Hey, I never thought they’d ring those two shots during our basketball shoot out!