I’m not going to go into details about “why,” but I made the decision to no longer watch my nephews after school. It’s a really, really long story. My heart is in tiny bits over this. Despite the stress I’m under when I watch them, I actually LOVE watching them. They’re my favorite “little people” in the world. I know this is going to crush them, and I’m not just saying that. These boys have gone through a lot in their short lives. More than a lot of adults I know. I just hope they realize this wasn’t an easy decision for me. I hope they don’t think it’s anything they did.

This is a lot harder than I thought it would be. I just feel like my help isn’t appreciated at all, and I felt I was being taken advantage of. But yeah, I don’t want to get into details because I love my sister, despite all of this. Anyway..

I already miss those boys, and today is only the first day I won’t be watching them.

One day, when I’m gone, my sister will realize just how big of a role I played in her life.. their life.. and want to play in the future. I wish she could/would see that life is so short..